octobre 25, 2004

this is crazy

So, in the past couple of days, I have written fifteen pages. So far. That's something in the order of 4-5,000 words.

Unfortunately it is not yet November and it is not my Nanowrimo novel. But still, if I can get a writing spurt or ten on like that in November, I'll kick this thing's ass.

The good news is, I am hitting the climax of this fic. So to speak. It's been a long time coming. This is a WIP that is about... oh... three or four years old now? I have abandoned it for long stretches of time... partly because of the whole disintegration of my life factor, and partly because I got so bored and disillusioned with the show.

But dude.


Maybe another... five chapters? That would be 25 to 30 pages. I could SO get this finished this week.

I just hope I don't burn myself out before Nanowrimo.

ANd speaking of my Nanowrimo novel. As I was driving home on Friday, I turned off the radio and plotted it out in my head. And wow. This could actually work. This could be a workable, readable story. It might not be saleable, but at least it will be on paper. And that's the first step....

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octobre 22, 2004

roll on the weekend!

I can't believe how much I am looking forward to six days off. Well, with the weekends, ten days in a row. I suspect the anticipation will be better than the actually time off but....

The weather is lousy and I rather hope it stays lousy so that I don't have to make excuses to myself in order to stay bundled up on the couch with the laptop, the PS2 controller and the DVD remote.

You may see a lot of me during the next week. Alternatively, since I won't have to be procrastinating doing boring work stuff, you might see nothing of me at all.

Toss a coin and lay your bets folks.....

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octobre 21, 2004

deep(ly) content

There are moments when I really *love* being me. Despite the fact that there are some things in my life that aren't so great, despite some small regrets.... I really *love* who I am and I love my life.

Which, I think, is a pretty fantastic acheivement, given where I was a few years ago.

Part of it is to do with the fact that I am in England. It'll be two years on November the eleventh. It seems like it's gone in the blink of an eye, and yet it seems like I've been here forever. It's strange, I can't explain the feeling of belonging I have in this country but I do know it seems to grow as time goes on. So many people don't understand why I want to stay here, why I'd rather be here than back in New Zealand and they want me to explain it to them. But how do you explain something that is intrinsic on a soul level? How do you explain something you're not even sure you understand yourself?

You can't, and you shouldn't have to.

It's much like this blog. There are some people that don't understand how I can talk so personally, how I can share the most personal details of my head and heart. But how can they understand when they are not me? When they haven't lived in my head, seen the things I've seen. Felt the fear I've felt?

And why should I have to explain, to justify something that works for me? Something that feels right for me. Gives me strength and the courage to just carry on being me, flaws and all.

This is my voice, the one that exists under the every day crap. These are the things I never really have the opportunity to say to anyone. They are the thoughts that run endlessly through my head and sometimes, they're worth actually *saying*. Even if it's uncomfortable or frightening. Because fear is nothing but a limitation. Fear is an enemy because it keeps us from fulfilling our potential as people. As individuals.

And sometimes I can talk utter shit. But I love it. I love that I can do that. I love that at long last I can open my hear and soul and not care who sees inside. Not care who dislikes my flaws, who looks at me sideways. Because *I* really *like* myself so what others think is neither here nor there.

So while being in England is part of this equation, the bigger part are th changes that have occurred inside my head. Beating my inner critic into submission and just learning to enjoy being me has been a long and sometimes difficult process, but it's been a journey that has been *so* worth taking. And it's a journey that continues. I still have so much to learn, I still have a long way to go, but on days like today I just sit back and feel really *good* about.... well, everything.

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octobre 19, 2004

well, that's a little odd....

I realised something quite disturbing the other day. Over the past few weeks of viewing the X-Factor I have developed an insidious and entirely unexpected crush on Sharon Osbourne!

I mean, dude, I know I have a thing for older women (my longstanding crush on Francesca Annis immediately springs to mind) but really, Sharon Osbourne?

But it's true, I do. Granted, I have never watched more than a fleeting glimpse of The Osbournes and maybe that would serve to turn me off but... there's just something about her that I completely adore. She's sassy, smart, foul mouthed, funny, crazy and... well, she just seems like a really genuinely *nice* person. When she's not being a bitch, that is.

Am I completely crazy?

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octobre 18, 2004

handwriting meme

Yes, clearly I am not much in the mood for work today. But wow, check it out.

From http://www.handwritingwizard.com/

I find this almost disturbing in it's accuracy.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Rachael has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Rachael fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Rachael has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Rachael is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Rachael would like to leave the past behind and move on.

Rachael has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Rachael's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Rachael has regarding sex and physical things. So, her lower zone stroke is large, so her sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Rachael is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.

Rachael has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
Rachael is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.
Rachael has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

One way Rachael punishes herself is self directed sarcasm. She is a very sarcastic person. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at herself.

Rachael is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Rachael basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach." She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Rachael's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Rachael slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Rachael can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Diplomacy is one of Rachael's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Rachael can disagree without being disagreeable.

Rachael is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Rachael will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Rachael believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Rachael uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Rachael does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Rachael will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Rachael is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Rachael doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Read more about her emotional expressiveness in the section on emotions and slant.

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sublime to ridiculous

The internet is currently deaded. Or at the very least, it's in the terminal throes. It's so. fucking. slow. It's like being on dial-up. The kind of dial-up Noah used.

God forbid I *ever* have to use dial-up again. I think it would kill me. Or at the very least require me to take copious amounts of blood pressure medication.

Have I mentioned that I signed up for Nanowrimo?

Well I did.

Clearly, I am fucking insane. Don't expect me to come out of this one alive, folks.

If I actually make it through, it will be utter crap, but it can't be any worse than the bilge in my head, surely. And at least it will be out on paper. It might even make way for something that other people might want to read. One day.

God help me.
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constructive squandering

I had the most fabulous weekend. The girl was busy doing stuff at her sister's, so I took the opportunity just to *stop*. I sat down and actually took some me-time. I watched some Buffy, did some writing, did some surfing and generally just relaxed.

It's clear I don't actually do that enough.

I've been feeling immensely stressed for a number of reasons lately and this is probably one of them. As much as I try and get everything sorted and try and organize myself, I never quite get there and it seems to be a continual struggle to just do everything I have to do. So much so, I very rarely seem to have time to just sit and enjoy being me. Part of the problem is that I love Jackie so that I want to spend all my free time with her. But sometimes, I just have to take stock and realize that I need to just be by myself and recharge. That's how I've always been. I just need to be alone sometimes. Now far less than I used to, but still, I need it every now and then.

I was hoping to get to New Zealand in February, but I've had to admit to myself that I definately can't afford it. That means that the leave I've been building up can be squandered a little more casually. So I've decided to take the week off next week. I plan to get a few essential things done - like registering with a doctor and dentist but I also plan to take some time to just relax. Do some writing. Think about the fact that I've entered NanoWriMo (!).

I'm just going to enjoy it.

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octobre 14, 2004

pumpkin pie

Does anyone have a good failproof recipe for pumpkin pie? We're having a murder-mystery game Halloween party with the boys and I think I might just make pumpkin pie for dessert. We'll have it with icecream and clotted cream from Devon.

What are some good other Halloween-ey type recipes that I can make? We don't really do Halloween in New Zealand and I only spent one (miserable) Halloween in the US so I'd like to make this one fun.

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octobre 13, 2004

Lone Donkey, Blackpool Beach

Lone Donkey, Blackpool Beach

Originally uploaded by silentresonance.

This guy kinda sums up our weekend at Blackpool. While the rest of the girls were watching the football in the afternoon, Jax and I went to find something to eat. We ended up with McDonalds and sat on the sand. It was grey and miserable and I think we really knew how this donkey felt. He just wandered off on his own and stood there, looking out to see. I don't think he really wanted to be there. I don't think we did either.

(There are a few more pictures of the donkeys and beach in the flickr photo set.)

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octobre 12, 2004

be silent no more

October 12, 1998

Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.

~ Shel Silverstein

Six years ago today, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.

What will you do to end the silence?

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three weeks and counting

fucking *anyone*

I'm not usually a political animal. And of course, not everyone I know agrees with my politics. But I feel *so* damn strongly about this. I can't stand him. I can't stand what he stands for. I can't stand the influence he has over my life, even from another continent away.

I really can't stand the idea of what is going to happen to this world if he is in power for another four years.

Three weeks people, just three weeks. Please, DON'T let them continue to spread the fear

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octobre 11, 2004


Um, EW. They've found parts of a woman's body in a park a couple of miles away from here.

I hate it when that happens.

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finally, I feel like I have some kind of end to a chapter of my life. I have closed a door and it feels right. there is silence and peace and space. space to move and breathe and just love.

there's no longer anger or pain. there's just... me. me and a future with someone who is an incredible person. someone who makes me happier than I ever could have imagined I would be.

it's long been over. I've been over it for a while. but now there is closure.

thank you.

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we went to blackpool in the weekend. my advice? don't bother going to blackpool. it's pretty much as bad as it sounds. I guess it was okay, but I do believe we would have been better off staying at home.

guess everything can't be great all of the time...

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octobre 08, 2004

Sun setting on the way to Leeds

Sun setting on the way to Leeds

Originally uploaded by silentresonance.

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an open letter

Sometimes keeping old emails can be both a blessing and a curse.

To read the inevitable implosion of a conversation between two brokenmendingbreaking hearts in hindsight? Sweet, painful and enlightening.

To see your own flaws magnified by the distance of long months, both frightening and instructive.

I have some regrets. Things I said, things I did. Words which can never be taken back. Not least the words which should never have been read.

If you ever read this, I am truly sorry. I didn't understand, (I still don't), why you cut me off last February. Why you stopped answering my emails, just when I thought we were finally on some kind of even keel. As friends, at last. I was angry and hurt all over again and I was weak. I have no defense for my words and I apologize unreservedly.

I tried to write you after everything, to apologise, but the letter came back to me. I thought it was an omen. Stumbling on those emails today? I remembered how many times we came close to getting it right and then I would get it so wrong. It's taken me almost two years to completely let you go. To just be happy that you are happy. To be completely happy myself.

And still, there is the you shaped hole in my life that will never be filled. Because I don't think you are the same shape any more. Neither am I. I don't think we'll ever fit again. That is the most bittersweet thing to emerge from this whole tangled mess.

I hope you know I regret hurting you. Over and over. I hope you know that whatever I might have said in the heat of the moment, in the sharpness of acid pain, I never really meant it. I never really meant to hurt you. I might have thought I meant it at the time, but it hurts that I hurt you.

You know, I take it back; I don't have many regrets at all. But this is one. The words that can't be rescinded. I've needed to make this apology for a long time, but it's only now that it feels right to make it. I am sorry. For everything.

~ Rachael

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octobre 07, 2004


Maybe some girls aren't supposed to be tamed. Maybe they are supposed to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with.
- Carrie, Sex and the City

I really love that show sometimes....

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octobre 06, 2004

opening doors

I haven't written a lot lately. At least, not a lot about what is going on inside me. I'm not sure I want to lay myself bare to the world right now.

So many reasons. Too many eyes that I know, or knew once. I've become aware of being watched. By people I trust, that's okay, I'm good with that. But it's become hard to be open when you're not sure where your words go. And how they go. And what they become when they get there.

I feel like I'm protecting myself again and I'm not sure I like that. Because it implies fear. Distrust. But of myself or others? And what should it matter who reads and what the words become? This was only ever for myself. I suppose the problem is when you stand on a stage and become aware of the audience. Do you give in to the stagefright or do you force yourself to move forward? To speak from the heart?

And yet, I feel uncertain and not just because I have stagefright. There are too many new things, new feelings. A new privateness has come about me because my life is now not just my own. It is shared, and there are things I only want to share with her, and not with the rest of the world. There are things I hear and see that I want to draw and describe, but there are things in my heart that I guard with a fierce protectiveness. They are new and fragile and they are mine. And hers.

It's not that I am afraid of being broken any longer. I mended, stronger than I ever was before. But I am afraid of breaking that which has been given to me. I cherish and I won't play games with it. It is not mine to expose to the world.

I was raw once and I healed by letting the sunlight in. By opening the wound and letting the harsh light linger in the shadows. But I'm healed now and it's time to close the windows a little. It's so warm in here, I don't want to let the heat escape.

I'll still be here, I'll still be talking from time to time, but forgive me if I'm not as open as I once was. I'm still finding my way among the minefield of life, and now is the time to tread gently.

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In the United States, doing good has come to be, like patriotism, a favorite device of persons with something to sell.
H. L. Mencken (1880 - 1956)

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octobre 05, 2004

Autumn colours

Autumn colours
Originally uploaded by silentresonance.

Autumn has definately come to town. Moreso in York than in Leeds so far, I guess it's that much further north east. The colours so far are pretty good, despite the crappy summer we had. I took a whole lot of pictures at Roundhay on the weekend but it's not yet really spectacular there. It will be interesting to go back in a week or two and take some more pictures.

I also have the pictures from London back - I just need to scan em... so God only knows when I'll find time to do that....

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and then there are times when life is infinitely unfair

Why, Eliza, why?

Why do you have to be bringing your hot little tush to London on a weekend when I simply cannot afford to go down?


*sobs quietly*

And I was all set to post this when some kind soul pointed out that not only will Eliza D be there, so will Amber B....


*wails noisily*

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octobre 01, 2004


I've seen this meme around a bit and thought it looked interesting. turns out I've done almost exactly half of these things, which isn't bad considering how obscure some of them are!

Some of them made me think. Some of them made me smile at the memories. Some of them made me sad and regretful.

They all made me.

Have You Ever:
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink (when I was young and irresponsible)
02. Swam with wild dolphins (on my to-do list without a doubt)
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid (one day I will…)
06. Held a tarantula.(this one I probably won't. Held a giant weta though!)
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said ‘I love you’ and meant it (oh yes, more than once...)
09. Hugged a tree

10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise

15. Seen the Northern Lights (no, but how I want to…)
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa (no, but only because it was closed when we went there)
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby’s diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne

25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight

33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favourite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath

39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster

42. Hit a home run (unlikely as I'm not even slightly co-ordinated…)
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer

49. Visited all 50 states (no, but close to half of them…)
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced

52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country

55. Watched wild whales (this is another that is definitely on my to-do list)
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government’s official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach

62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland (as soon as I can get there…)
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love (well, maybe not in love, but certainly longer than we were together)
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them

66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day

73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to “Let’s Get It On” by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain (danced in the rain!)

79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don’t regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who’s not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog (and that I do regret)
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class

88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman ( heh, you never know what's around the corner!)
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie (well, a TV movie of an operetta when I was about twelve, yeah)
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn’t have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy

95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest

100. Ridden a gondola in Venice (I've been to Venice but have yet to do the gondola thing)
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on

103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don’t remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage (I was the lead in two school musicals when I was knee-high to a grasshopper...)
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand

115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children (well, for about 4 months I lived with my best friend and helped raise her son – does that count?)
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy (well, I read a favourite childhood book actually - The Faraway Tree stories by Enid Blyton!)
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour (*seen*, yes, followed, no)
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over (dude, another *country*!)
134. …more than once? (and again....)

135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived.
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone’s heart (I'm sure I did in one way or another...)
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job

148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle (as a passenger, yeah)
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph

154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse

158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train (well, there's a thought….)
160. Had a snake as a pet (um, no. Just… NO)
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon (another thing I'd *love* to do…)
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours (when I had glandular fever, yeah, for sure)
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states (no, but only because I've visited lots of US states)
165. Visited all 7 continents (no, but I'm up to four so far...)
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground (okay, we're getting a *little* obscure here, don't you think…?)
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper

172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad (no, that's on the list though)
181. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them (well, does glasses from the pub count?)

183. …and gotten 86′ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating (never. ever.)
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language

189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested (no, but it was damn close….)

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