changes

today it's one year since I left new zealand. one year without seeing the ones I love, one year without smelling the fresh air of home. it is so strange. it feels like an eternity and yet it seems like it could have been just yesterday.

it's been a strange year. a strange, frightning, painful, thrilling journey. I'm still stumbling, still trying to surmount the roadblocks. some days are still harder than others.

thankfully the pain and the anger is mostly gone. I enjoy getting up in the mornings now. I look forward to tomorrow.

I am having lunch with friends on Thursday and dinner at another friends house in the evening. I plan to go to an lbgt dance in york at the beginning of june. this time I plan not to get drunk.

I am making plans to meet people. to meet women. to date again. it's exciting and also frightening.

I'm in love again, but this time it's with myself, my potential and my future.